Jul 15 2008 Tuesday, 12:00 pm
Bersama Mak Merah
hi kak, hepi belated besday…wah…sonok nye dpt dating dgn sirman tanpa anak2..
i havent had d chance to tell u what actually is going on with my life now..
dis month genap 1 year my parents were seperated..at the age of 62. It was so sad to have a broken family , same goes to my brother and elder sister they are to seperated.kesian ank2 buah ku.. i’m so scared for this to happen to me and husband..simpang malaikat 44.
since april i havent talked to my mother, coz of little misunderstanding on how i brought up my sons. Actually i’m not there to help my hubby besarkan anak2 since january except for school holidays.. i’m in kedah studing until this december. dia terasa ati about the incident , actually she came to stay at my house dat was during my two weeks school based experience at a school near my house. it ended up only for a night when she asked hubby to sent her back to bro’s house. she been avoiding my bro too..this means dat she lock herself in her room when my bro comes home from work and the only time she’ll come out is when he’s gone for work. After this while she never answers my call or reply my sms. hati kering skit my mom ni. i know she depress but never wanna talk or see her sister or other relatives. she afraid of what people would say about her being a widower.
let’s ct it short, last night my youngest sis called and told me my mom is back at bro’s place..4 days after her besday. maybe coz my sis came back to malaysia for her holidays.
all this time i was so worried, angry , upset, frustrated for not being able to talk to her and help her but i’m happy today to know that she’s ok and she looks fine.
there’s more to spill out but it would take me hours to do so.. and sure a bucket full of tears..n i dun have that much time now since i’m trying to prepare a whole week’s lesson plan..huhu.
i’m here away from hubby n i dun trust my friends here anymore.. they are not sincere enough for me..more specifiic BACK STABBER and i’m stuck for 3 months with the MASTERMIND. eii benci bila teringat how she manipulates other friends to hate me..mulut manis kak..kaki bodek ngampu!! sumtimes she sounds very rude to our seniors.
kak!! byk nye nk luah…tensen nye..takde sapa kat sini..i’m being left out from my own clique. i was d own who asks for sumones help to make sure we all dpt sekolah dkt dgn town n setempat so dat we can stay d 4 of us together n now they are moving out. i got a place to rent near my school but atleast ajak2 ayam pn ok la. ni kita hint, meke wat bodo je..
i’m planning to stay in hostel after the practical n i can pull sum strings to do so.actually in my list their names were in but this time they need to do it themselves ,bior lepas pewot aku sorg dah ler..mampuih p ler meke..evil kan..
haha dah bejela warkah ku ini kak, maybe next time i sambung lik..huhu..
gud nite
Yinie
** Bila BMM keluar, readers to give advise comments on the story, not kak red**
dodol
Jul 15, 2008 @ 12:55:43
napa bukan kak red turut advice walaupon sedikit…
RedMummy
Jul 15, 2008 @ 13:52:19
becoz b4 i posted this entry, i communicated wt her first. i talk to her directly, not via BMM.
hope thats clear.
iekan78
Jul 15, 2008 @ 13:19:19
Hi Yinnie,
pjg berjela luahan perasaan which is good drpd duk simpan dlm hati. at least rasa lega bila dh luahkan walaupon tk semua….separuh pon dh ok tu!!!!
pasal ur mother tu, just give her some space dulu. bila dia dh ok nnt, dia sendiri akan cari anak dia, air dicincang tk kan putus, kan….so, jgn la saudari risau yer. biasa la org tua nih mmg degil sikit, payah nk pujuk. makin tua makin mudah dia terasa hati hatta perkara sebesar kuman pon mereka dh cpt terasa. kite yg muda kena la cuba memahami situasi mereka….dan saya kagum dgn usaha saudari yg sedaya upaya cuba menjernihkan hubungan saudari dgn mak saudari itu.
sudah la ade masalah dgn keluarga, kawan yg sepatutnye menjadi pendgr dan pemberi semangat pon tiada disisi. susah hendak mencari kawan sejati, maklum la nama pon manusia….rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain2. nasihat saya saudari pedulikan sahaja org yg suka berhasad dengki dan busuk hati nih dan concentrate saje pada pelajaran. juga jgn lupa berdoa supaya allah memberi ketenangan dan memudahkan perjalanan hidup saudari…..amin.
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elle
Jul 15, 2008 @ 13:52:16
This person at UUM yea? Yealah dekat sana dah terperuk macam tue, the best thing to do is from my experience, don’t depend on other people, just stand on your feet, 3 years kat sana, every sem i tukar roomate, bayangkan macam every year kena sesuaikan diri dengan org yg x kenal kita, yet i still miss my first roomate. Memang bila disana, x perlu open up sgt diri kita kerana x berbaloi langsung. Last2 orang akan take advantage, there all there with theirs own target. Masa i belajar dulu, group assignment i semua lain. Kawan kat kolej lain, kawan belajar lain and kawan assignment lain. I praktikal pun sdiri2 jea. Kalau ada problem i akan cari my sisters, my bff (best friends forever) and kalau really x boleh tanggung dah baru i call my mum or dad, plus don’t 4get Allah S.W.T to get through all the way. Marriage student memang banyak dugaannya, i see it b4, but u get through it, and already July, soon to be august.
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lilred799
Jul 15, 2008 @ 19:10:47
dear Yinie,
u have turn to a right shoulder when u send this to BMM, what more when kak red herself has given u some words personally. being in the same boat experiencing with all the backstabbers and all sort kind of PHD, she might have the best way to overcome this…..but as elle said…..sometimes we have to do things by our own….yes, it is truly difficult at first, and as i’ve told many ppl…baby steps are fine….take a small step first before u can run ur life out….experiencing this myself, it took me 3 bloody years….cume nak berdiri di atas kaki sendiri…mmg sgt susah…dan bnyk bazir masa…tp bile kite dah betul2 mahir…insyaAllah…..things will work it’s way out….percaya pada diri sendiri….always beri kata2 semangat dan beri kepercayaan padai diri sendiri untuk buat semua by yourself……..bile kite sorg…kite tak payah pk masalah org lain…kite akan depends pada diri sendiri dan at that time kite akan make sure we get the best for ourselves, because we know that ourselves deserve what it deserve. seronok tau yinie…..bile sorg2….takyah nak sibuk2 hal org lain..tak yah nak pk hati org lain…tak yah nak fit in ngan masa org lain…..dan secara tak langsung it will built our self confidence….u will always have ur hubby + ur son to communicate with bile2 u free kan……dan kalau je ade masa2 terasa kesepian tu…always think about ur loves one….ape yg kite buat sekarang..adalah untuk diri kite dan kebahagian bersama…so it’s definitely worth it kan???
regarding ur families issue…..kadang2 kite susah sikit nak paham keadaan org2 yg lebih warga emas dr kite ni….they have their own ego to dela with….biasalah…sapa yg nak ngaku…berhadapan dgn masalah tatkala diri sendiri sebenarnye hidup lebih lama di dunia….dah pasti die pk die lah yg paling bnyk pengalaman berbanding org lain….apatah lagi bile anak yg mude belia nak bantu…tentu sikit sebnyk tercalar ego die kan….so u just have to gve her some space…..even still keep on texting ur mom and other relatives….berikan kata2 semangat dan curahkan dgn kata2 kasih syg…..even a simple i love will do…..built up their confidence with ur unconditional love….insyaAllah…satu hari nanti mereka smue akan kembali normal…..mmg susah dan sakit hati bile kite tgk diorg camtu…tp dorg yg menghadapinye pasti lg susah……furthermore..ur mom has been spending most of her life with her used to be other half kan……
bnyk2 kan berdoa…diberi kekuatan pada diri u sendiri dan pd org2 yg u sayang…insyaAllah….Allah itu Maha Adil…..Yakin dan Percayalah pd Dia….
saya doakan Yinie sekeluarga dilindungi Allah selalu…
*Big Hugs*
Nadh
Jul 15, 2008 @ 21:51:50
All I can say is whatever it is, family comes first. The first and TOP priority among everything else.
I’m sure you can mend all these. It’s your family afterall.
Anyway, my grandma and grandpa pon was separated during their 60s. After 20 odd years, they’re back together with the help of the “sweet-talks” [makan tahun] from the anak-anak & cucu-cucu especially. Hehe. They’re in their 80s now, still rocking and loving as ever. 🙂
Everything happens for a reason kan?
Putubambu
Jul 16, 2008 @ 08:17:13
happy belated birthday mak red..!
to Yinie.. all the best to you dlm mengharungi hidup yg penuh cabaran ni..
biasalah.. backstabber tu..kat mana2 pun ada..
ape2hal pun.. belajar cekal dan kuatkan diri tu..
dan yg penting..buat ape yg awak rasa terbaik utk diri anda…
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